I wonder

I wonder what effect I could have on a person if I shared my story with them. Could I move them, or change their life? maybe I could shift their perspective a bit or rock their world for a moment. I have a vision where I place a scroll into someone's bag and they find it and read it. It has all my secrets, hopes, fears, dreams, etc. It is the most honest representation I have ever given of myself. And then, I see them reject it. They think it's made up, or pathetic, they crumble it up or rip it into tiny pieces. They get angry at the scroll. I become ashamed and regret trying to share.

Deep down I'm scared that people won't accept me for who I truly am. If I can't get a stranger to accept me, to love me without judgement, how can I get someone that knows me to see past all the shameful things I've done? I know this is silly, but I've never been completely honest with anyone in my entire life. It's starting to eat at me. That's why I'd like to meet someone new. I can start from scratch and try really hard to be completely honest with them.

I wonder what would happen if I shed my anger, my fear, my insecurity, my anxiety, my pessimism, my guilt. I wonder what would happen if I shed my mask.