Rory Propst I miss youI

I have had quite too much whiskey tonight but not too much to relive this heart-gutting night. I run into him at a liquor store. He says we should hang. Okay, the night is young I say. We all go to a party together. He keeps flirting. I tell him I wont hook up with him. We pinky promise we wont. He wastes hours flirting with me. My friends feel comftorable to leave the party and leave me with him. Did I mention Im rather drunk? hah. The second they leave he tries to kiss me. I remind him of our verbal agreement. He says kissing doesnt count. I establish that it does. He is frustrated, then tells this girl from my sorority she looks really hot. He begins to ignore me. I say fuck him in my head. I walk out, he doesnt stop me. Why should he? I dont give him anything he wants.. I walk alone to the dorms, rather drunk. I still am. Thank you natural ability to write decently even while under the influence. And all i think about all night is Rory. And how he would never do that to me. At least I'd hope not. Is something wrong with me? The fact that I cant hook up with random guys at parties? I cant help it, i just have no trust, no trust anymore. Not after Anthony.